2010 was an odd year. It was a strange mix of gone too fast, but seemingly never ending. Christmas and New Year's seemed to sneak up on me and I was not quite prepared. All in all, 2010 was a pretty nondescript year. A lot happened, but I do not have many concrete memories of experiences that stand out in my memory. I did some fun things, experienced some pain and loss, became an aunt for the first time. Yet, thinking back over the past year my only thought is, "meh."
As I reflect on the past year and look on 2011 with anticipation, I wonder why the year was so lackluster, or least my feelings about it are. There were definitely some things that happened that I will never forget, but my overall feeling about the year is that it was pretty mediocre.
Here's hoping 2011 can move on from "meh," and preferably in a positive direction. Though at the moment, I don't have real high hopes. I feel like I'm standing the edge of a knife and if I'm not careful, I'll end up getting cut. I find myself faced with decisions I am not ready to make, though I think in the back of my mind I've known they were coming for a while. Because I feel so unprepared and afraid of what my decisions may mean, all I want to do is run and hide. Not the best way to start a new year.
I know that God is with me in all of this and that all I need to do is wait on God's guidance. I'll admit, that is so much easier said than done. All I can do right now is figure out what I even want in these situations and go from there.
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