Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

I am beginning to learn just how true this statement (which is also a song lyric from All At Once by The Fray) really is. Doing the right thing can often be easy, depending on what the right thing is. However, if the right thing is involving a close relationship or the decision to do the right comes on a bad day, it can be tough. When things get hard, it becomes that much harder to do the right thing. When you combine both of those scenarios, it becomes almost impossible to do what is right. I find it difficult to do the right thing when I know it is going to make a relationship awkward or strained. And when I have a day where nothing seems to go right, there seems to be even less reason to take the necessary step back. I'm beginning to learn that I am not as strong-willed as I always thought I was. If I don't like something, I am much better about not doing it. But if the thing I shouldn't have or do is something I want, than I really struggle to walk away. I know this is the case for most people. It is hard to let go of the things we want, even if we know that it is what is right. I know that I need to take the necessary step back in order to make the relationship stronger in the long run, but it is so hard when all I want to do is curl up in his arms and close my eyes to the world for a little bit. I never thought a few inches could feel like a chasm. The space would be easily spanned, but it is the one distance I cannot cross for the time being. I have to keep reminding myself that it is the right thing to do. No one said doing what is right would be easy, but then again no one said it would be this hard.